This is me in 2010, when I was 50.
I wasn't planning to go anywhere...I only wanted to be left alone by everybody, and life was a sick JOKE, and my own life was going nowhere and I was fed up with this stupid experiment, called existence and I was broken hearted.
(the links to music videos lead to secular rock music so do not listen to it if you do not wish to be affected)
But JESUS had other plans with me, which I wasn't aware of, but first He wanted me to experience how it FEELS to be totally left alone in hell.
IT WAS AWFUL and NEVER ENDING, and I knew I deserved to be there, because I had been such a bad boy, and any thought in my own defence had VANISHED.
My favourite song had become true!
I was LOST FOREVER!
I cried, and cried and cried and cried, but to no avail!
My dear mother saw me in my agony and pain, and she tried to comfort me, but I pushed her away from me, which made her feel powerless and bewildered.
But then...all of a SUDDEN, for the second time in my life, my mood changed from hellish into celestial, and JESUS talked to me and He spoke my name, saying:
'Hans, there are two things you can do; commit suicide, or start reading the Bible'.
That was all!
I decided to buy a brand new Bible, because I didn't own one, though I already had a new testament in contemporary Dutch, translated from contemporary English, which I had bought after my first similar experience at the end of 1980.
And so it happened that I became a follower of JESUS!
I'm an ex-atheist, who already had turned into an agnostic, due to experiences and certain (occult) knowledge, but to me God and the devil were one and the same, and I was the most cynical person in history, awaiting the third and last world war, which hopefully would blow us all to smithereens and would end this crazy experiment called life.
But more than 30 years after this experience I'm still here, awaiting something MUCH BETTER: the RAPTURE of the Body of JESUS Christ!
What about you?
Where are you going?
Heaven or hell?
Heaven is REAL and hell too!
Choose JESUS or choose eternal damnation: the choice is yours alone.